Shut up and Drive!

Hello people! I write to you from my desk in my room with my music blaring! I am in an exceptionally good mood right now! Loud music always helps! ( screams) SUPERMASSIVE BLACK HOLE!!!!! So yea, that's the song I'm listening to at the moment! It gets me pumped! Cant help but move.... and smile..... and move!!! No shocker at all but its on the Twilight Soundtrack, which, to my surprise, was/is actually really good! Very diverse! I can get my screaming music, and my feel good music, and my slow down music, and my moving music in just 12 tracks! So I should move on to updates!!

So since last I wrote things have progressed with mom at a very even pace! She finally got to weigh herself today! But I will not divulge the answer until she chooses to share. Lets just say ITS BIG! All that's left now is for her to continue to worry about herself and not others around her, i.e. her mom! I have threatened many times to rip the phone from her hand and give her mom a piece of my mind and I wasn't kidding! I will do whatever needs to be done to keep the negativity to a minimum. I'm proud of her though. She's been tough. And gotten a whole lot better and standing up for herself. It amazing what you are capable of when you finally gain back a little confidence!

Home life has been a bit of a struggle. In some aspects the closeness that was forged when the accident happened has still continued. Unfortunately I feel its faded more so then not. I knew it couldn't be one big happy family forever. What family is, really. But I think the lack of job is setting me up to lose my patience, or have no patience at all. I guess that's a good lead in to the job front. I called Kelley Services last week and they said they would have a position for me near the first of April. It sounded very final, very definite, which was a load off. Then a new load presented itself. That left me a month's worth of bills to pay, and no way to pay them. Kelley had some temp jobs that were a day long... but those are all gone now. Ive put my application into other places from the paper and haven't heard anything. Sucks when they just give an email or fax number and no number to call and check up. By the time i finally get accepted anywhere I'm going to have to quit for BCBS. "When my time comes, forget the wrong that Ive done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty, keep my in your memories, and leave out all the rest." Sorry that's the song I'm on now-- good Linkin Park song! SINGING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS NOW!!! Anyway, back to where I was. So basically I'm screwed. And then there are those who like to go around behind my back, knowing full well I will find out that they said something, and, in so many words, call me a bum. This person, however, is not around to see what i am or am not doing with my day. Its typical, and nothing surprises me anymore. But for those of you out there I'll just get it out there: I'm doing everything I can to find a remedy to my problem this month! Whatever! THE SPOT LIGHT IS ON!!! (another good song..... do you see a pattern emerging in this blog? Random song quotes lol)

Moving on to brighter topics! Tara came to visit this weekend. BEST WEEKEND OF THE YEAR SO FAR!!! I had soooo much fun! I don't know how else to describe! Friday went to Chili's! Then drove around, with the windows down (well half down, it was FREEZING), the radio blaring, dancing, punching the air, singing as loud as we could..... just completely cut loose! I introduced T to the Twilight Soundtrack and found a fellow admirer! And it was perfect from then on! Talked about a whole bunch of stuff, but every time something got serious or complicated we just turned on Spotlight and danced it out!!

Saturday we had some errands to run! So we went to Wendy's first for a quick cheap lunch (Man their nuggets are good), then it was off to Walmart for some DVD-Rs (reason is not necessary to know :)) And some sunglasses since both of my other pairs passed away! Then it was off to Hobby Lobby (my first time in there since they took over the Hastings part......... it was.... alright lol! Nothing big lol). Tara had to get some flowers to put on her grandmother's grave! They have a great selection of faux flowers there. They even made me think about getting some to put out! So life-like its crazy!! As we drove between places I kept on telling Tara that I wish there was something else we could do! It was soo early in the day and I didn't want to go home! She suggested a game place or putt putt and then I remembered the new PRIMETIME place we got here in Abilene! I had always wanted to go, but didn't have anyone to go with and I was definitely not going to go alone!!

Ok, quick break, Rob Pattinson's song is on... She Never Thinks! You wouldn't imagine that singing voice coming from him! But its soooo good! And its not just because its Rob Pattinson! I love those acoustic guitar songs. It makes me smile. It makes me feel good! That's all that matters! And NO he doesn't sound like Bruce Springsteen! Not at all, T! LMAO! OOOOKKKK back to PRIMETIME! Ok so the one thing I will say about it is that we were completely confused when we went inside. We had no idea what to do! We thought about just going and playing some arcade games but they all required this certain card! So we went and got in line at the front desk, waiting, while others were looking at us like they thought we knew what we were doing lol! Once we got all that straightened out we decided to play some pool! So we went to the pool room-- put there were no cues or balls! So we realized we had to go back to the front desk to get this stuff! lol Back and forth back and forth!! We thought about riding the go karts or playing miniature golf, but it was very windy and chilly! So we figured we would go back when it got nicer and do the other stuff!! So anyway, we went and played pool! T got up some drinks in nifty bottles that we kept as souvenirs of our adventure together! I got pink and T got purple, of course!

T ended up winning 2 of the 3 games... by default though! Me and the 8-ball seemed to be loving each other! The other game I won for real... all my balls (stripes) then the 8! It was a miracle! Anyway, when we got done there we went to United to pick up a few things (esp. WINE) and then headed home. I made Southern Fried Chicken. We enjoyed a good meal (minus the awkward conversation that came about at the table for which I will not go into details but I can never apologize more to T for the circumstance and I've never been more embarrassed). After all the crap, T, myself, and my mom sat down at the table for several rousing rounds of Chicken Foot! Now T and I are lovers of the wine! We can usually each polish off a large bottle of Strawberry Arbor Mist! But for some reason we were both struggling this time. Maybe its because we started drinking as soon as we finished eating so we were still full from dinner. Anyway, it was a good time. T had to leave on Sunday to get back to reality, and it sucked, but I was drained. We made plans to go to Six Flags sometime this summer since we both hadn't been in a very long time, and I'm still holding out for decent priced Coldplay tickets for July 21st in Dallas. But right now they still only have lawn seats! But I will continue to check! I wont give up lol! So I'm looking forward to future trips and adventures with my friend! Who knows what the future holds!

On another note, this month the kitties turn the BIG 1!!! I still cant wrap my head around it! I doesn't seem like we've had them for that long! But I've watched them grow from fur balls that fit in the palm of my hand to big puffs of fur that require both hands to handle! They each have their little quirks! Alex like to jump on me, like he is playing tag! He always has to be the first to eat and the stretches as much as he can when he sleeps! He is the most photogenic and the camera loves him!

Sophie was always tiny! And i knew she would never be a huge cat, like Winston was! She's a princess and she knows it! Its a privilege when you get to be in her company! But she's a momma's girl! Sophie likes to come into the bathroom with me when I take a shower. He sits on the counter and waits patiently or comes and sits on the bath rub ledge between the shower curtain and shower liner. Its sort of like her own personal sauna! But when I'm done with my shower i HAVE TO pick her up and throw her over my shoulder. Only then am i allowed to leave the bathroom. This is welcomed with a very loud purr of contentment. Sophie always cares nothing of modesty! She prefers to be on her back, her legs spread as wide as possible! She loves her belly to be rubbed. Lately, since Ive been reading alot, she has taken to coming up on my bed, mid sentence and stare at the book, like she want to know what I'm reading! I tried reading aloud to her, and she would go to the end of my bed, curl up, and close her eyes, or she would rub her face in the book and try to chew it. I think she just doesn't want to compete with the book! She also prefers to sleep leaning against something! Like I said, they each have their little quirks!

On a similar subject, I think I might need to go ahead and address the other anniversary that is coming up at the beginning of April. April 1st to be exact. I thought maybe i should go ahead and talk about it because when it comes that time I know I wont want to discuss it much..... not that it ever gets any easier. That's another thing that is difficult to think about. April 1st with be a year since Winston passed away. His presence is still felt in this house. We ordered a grave marker for him and it came in yesterday. The inscription reads, "Our Special Boy, Winston July 1998 to April 2008."

It is going to be and has already proven to be a hard month! So much happiness has come from out two new additions, but sadness lingers as we remember when we were doing this time a year ago! Mom and I both agree that we cant help but feel extremely blessed and lucky that the right pet just seems to present itself to us! We were soo spoiled with Winston; he was such a well behaved boy. Of course he had is teenage rebellion, but as he grew up he was the epitome of a perfect cat. Now we are going through that phase with our new cats... and I keep flashing back to what it was like with Winston in the apartments. I know hes here when he thinks we're not strong enough to let go, or to just remind us that he'll never be fully gone. Maybe someday I will get to the point where I can think about him for a long period of time and not feel guilt or sadness. He's really meant to be celebrated!
So with that being said it will be a month of celebrating birthdays and those who have passed. Life isn't always easy! But its smart to try and learn from it, right? Well I'm thinking I will close with that! It weird, I'm finishing this blog and the last song on the soundtrack plays, Bella's Lullaby. It makes me cry every time, just because its beautiful (of course it doesn't hurt that Rob wrote and performed the song for the soundtrack. Just another facet of his abilities). Anyway, to get by I will just go to a happy place I have acquired! In my car, windows rolled down, light breeze, a never-emptying gas tank and my music as loud as it can go, with an open stretch of highway! What i wouldn't give to be there now! I can feel it already! Here I go.........

OH YOUR ONE OF US NOW!!!!! ( Spotlight, Twilight Soundtrack)

Here's to a Brand New Year, New Beginnings, New Everything!

So it has been a very long time since I updated. But I swear I have a good excuse. First, and foremost, I hope everyone had a great, relaxing holiday. I'm sure, for most of you, you will be going back to work on Monday. So take advantage of your last weekend and enjoy it. I cant remember what all I put in my last entry so I'm just going to wing it and hope that I don't repeat myself.

Work had been the same; stressful & hair-pulling. I was not enjoying myself or what I was doing. But I sucked it up and dealt with it. Again, if it hadn't been for Shannon, my co-worker at FKO, I probably would have lost it a long time ago. Of course, on the nanny front nothing had changed. Hours all over the place, guilt trips; the usual. But I just kept telling myself, PAYCHECK PAYCHECK PAYCHECK!! BILLS, BILLS, BILLS! The FKO Christmas Program was on the 14th and it turned out pretty good. Of course, parents love seeing their kids on stage no matter what they are doing, so even though the kids could hardly stand still and barely sung a note they were still adorable. The following Tuesday was the Christmas party. And that day went like pretty much every other holiday party, CRAZY!! But it was better then most years and I didn't feel like I was running in circles. I was a little disappointed that Jerry did not show up. In my past blogs, I have written about Jerry, the boy who had a bladder problem. Well it turns out the boy had a very big anger problem too. He got in the habit of kicking me, hitting me, slapping me. So he took several trips to the office where he proceeded to completely trash the office. His father, not unexpectedly, had had enough and said if he acted out one more time to call him at the first incident. It happened again, his dad came and got him, and said he wasn't sure if he would be back. I felt bad for Jerry. I didn't want things like that that happened at FKO to bring him more trouble at home. But his dad said that he does that to women in general, which was another scary development. All I can do is pray for the boy and hope he and his family find peace, and answers. Anyway, I left Tuesday bidding my co-workers a great Christmas and would see them in 2 weeks.

That same week, on Friday, was grocery shopping day. It was a little weird this time because mom had a doctor's appt. in the morning so I couldnt call her if I had questions about anything on the list. So I'm walking through the store and I get a call from her. She can barely speak, shes giddy as hell! She got on scales and could actually be weighed! Its the first time in a while. She had lost over 50 lbs. I was in the middle of H-E-B going OMG MOM OMG! THAT'S SOOO FANTASTIC I'M SOO PROUD OF YOU!! lol I got some looks but I didn't care. I couldn't have been more happier for her. I finish my shopping, and go home. Its getting on 10 in the morning and I get another call from mom. Its kind of a blur what happened next but I remember mom saying something to the effect of, "Ummm, I wont be coming home, I broke my leg!" I said.... WHAT!!! Apparently she was stepping off the curb at the doctor's office and broke her femur, right close to the hip. Thankfully, strangely, she felt no pain, just instant numbness. So I called my other boss and told her I couldn't make it to work (or course it seemed like I was putting her out.... like I planned it). I'll cut a few corners and say that mom spent up to 4 hours in the hall of the ER because the didn't have rooms, and then, when she was finally admitted, they took her to surgery, where they put a rod and 2 screws in her leg. So the next few days consisted of being up at the hospital, keeping her company, and trying not to let her sink into a black hole. I'm not a huge fan of hospitals in the first place, but there are a few exceptions where I couldn't care less where I am, as long as I am there for support and encouragement. Examples: Family members in the hospital, friends in the hospital. In other words, I don't hang out at hospitals for fun!! Now let me go off on a tangent here. With the exception of a few workers (I.E. the weekend staff, the PT, and the OT (which happened to be one of my old friends, Sarah, who's over-all demeanor brightened moms day and in return made me every so grateful)) the staff there SUCKED! I understand that all occupations have their fair share of gossip, but when you talk about it while her DAUGHTER IS IN THE HALL, you better watch the hell out. I have never been so close to going up to someone and just punching them in the face. Here I am, crying because I'm thinking my mom isn't going to be home for Christmas, shes antsy and confined and trapped and frustrated and there's nothing I can do and you sit here and bitch and complain about your job! Ever heard of BED SIDE MANOR? I guess not! Mom got her survey for her stay at the hospital today and quickly took it away and said that she better not let me see that or I might take it upon myself to fill it out for her; which I soooo wish I could. ANWAY!!!! We had been hearing not to get our hopes up that mom would be home for Christmas, but she did!! Now, it was a question of how to get her home. At first she was going to take a van from Hendrick's to the house, but since she could walk (mind you very little, very slowly, and very poorly) from her bed to the bed side commode, her insurance wouldn't cover it. So Citylink it was. We thought she would get dropped off at the house, but apparently in order to have that privilege you had to apply 30 days in advance. So here is mom, by herself on this Citylink bus, having no clue where she is going. They ended up taking her back to the main station and she had to wait there for a bus to come that would make a stop close to the house. The people there were unfriendly as well. Long story short, mom ended up getting dropped off about 2-3 blocks from the house, and dad had to push her all the way home, across SOUTHWEST DRIVE! So this just added to my anger. Of course, anytime a family member is hurt or in a situation like that, you want everything done quickly and efficiently. Obviously it doesn't always work out like that. But I didn't care. So, we got her home and she's been here since Dec. 23rd! Thank god she made it home for Christmas. Diana got to come into town 2 days earlier then planned, and that was a god send too. I felt lost; where to go, when to go, don't cry in front of mom, keep your hopes up, stay strong, but I want to cry, Diana is being so strong I wish I could be like her, Dad is holding it together, crying wont help anything right now, I hope mom's going to be OK, Wow 50+ lbs. that's amazing I'm soo proud of her. My head was everywhere, and no where, for a while. It was soo nice being able to see Diana, though. It was such a nice visit and felt like it flew by! Diana and Josh got their families web cams so now we can keep in touch visually! Diana and I got to play with it a little while yesterday--- it was FUN FUN FUN!! Oh, let me say HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY, DIANA!! LOVE YOU!!

OK, so now onto a new, but conjoining subject. Since all of this happened with mom, we hit a snag in the Scott household. Mom was not allowed to put any weight on her leg except on her toes. So she needed 24- hour care. So what was going to happen when both Dad and I had to go back to work? We talked about it and talked about it and came to the only clear solution.... mom and her health are more important to me then working right now-- she needs me so I will be there for her. In all reality I felt lucky and blessed that I was even home and in a position to help out. The decision was made for me to quit both of my jobs and stay home to now be "on call" for mom! We were lucky and thankful that we had family who could provide help in several areas to make this happen. So then it was time to make the phone calls. My nanny job was first. I was terrified to make that call. What as she going to say, how would she act? In a nut shell, I told her what had happened and the decision I had made. I told her I know that it must be an inconvenience but my family comes first. I told her that I could get back to her by Sunday (I called on Friday) and let her know the final decision. And then, to add to my already high level of frustration and anger, she said, "Well if you could let me know, like, tomorrow that would be better because it is sort of an inconvenience." I have no reaction to write to that that would explain what I felt. All I can say is, obviously, I was making the right decision. I had to go over Saturday to pick up my Christmas gift and bonus, where my boss proceeded to tell me that she was thinking of just holding my job till I could come back. Her husband didn't understand why he had to be present for the conversation at all, which I thought was because he wouldn't have to fight me for his children's affection anymore so he wasn't all that upset, but nevertheless I was a little put off. My boss thought that I was quitting because I was worn out and had had enough. And while that is a reason, its not the reason at the current moment that I quit. I told her that it would have been May if not now. And she said May would have been better because she could get college kids to watch her kids easier then she could now. I really have nothing more to say on that subject, other then when Maddy found out I might be leaving she completely melted down..... so I didn't get to say goodbye to her, which completely broke my heart. But at the same time I thought maybe it was better that I didn't say goodbye. That way the last memory she has of me is a good memory and not a sad one.
Then I called Kathy, the FKO director. She was far more understanding, and said she would not accept my resignation, but would keep my job open in case I still needed some money until my new full-time job came through. I am very thankful for that. I think she is still holding out that I won't quit, but, unfortunately I already have pre-plans in the works of my next hopeful job. And while the perfect job in my head is one similar to THE OFFICE setting, i'll settle for something kind of quiet, with steady hours, decent pay, and benefits. So all prayers are welcome for my new beginning.
So that leads us to the current day. I feel we are still trying to work on a routine but we are getting there. Mom is able to get up more on her own and Im soo proud of how strong she is and how she is coping with her situation. Of course, she has her moments where she feels trapped and frustrated and all Dad and I can do is be there for a shoulder to cry and moral support. But mom is such a head strong women, I feel that her recovery will be a smooth one!
Let's see!!! Oh, the cats!! So of course their world was turned upside down when all of this happened to mom. They had to be locked up in my room more often then not and Alex was not having it. He started climbing my door and making god awful moaning sounds! Then, all of a sudden, I started to notice him positioning himself over Sophie, as if he was going to mount her. The thing is, his expression on his face looked as though he was completely confused as to why he was standing where he was. Sophie usually got up and walked away. But it was happening over and over again. All I could think was, "Wait, he cant feel those feeling anymore, he has no balls for the love of God!" Anyway, after some research and some awful thoughts of having to call a vet and ask if this was "normal" I found out that it was either because when he was fixed, both of the testicles had not dropped so there was still one there (OH GOD NO.. PLEASE NO) or he was craving attention. I went with the 2nd and proceeded to let them out more, especially at night, and smothered him with love and attention... to the great unhappiness of Sophie (I'm her pet, not his :) ) but he hasn't done it again since, thank god!

In few words, because I care not to talk about it much, apparently the Broncos like setting records that no one wants. Like being the first team to have lead their division the entire season, only to loose to a team that was last in their division at the beginning of the season. We were 3 games ahead........ SERIOUSLY!!?!?!? Then they fire Shanahan. I never thought Id see the day. Who knows what next year will be like. I'm thinking it was better we didn't make the play-offs. We obviously didn't deserve it. We needed to go into off-season and work things out, become better, hopefully.

OK so, hopefully I captured everything in this entry. Long, drawn out, long-winded, whatever you may think of it; all I can say is its detailed and relieving to talk about it and put it out there. Now the changes seem real and I am optimistic! So even though i was more then ready to see 2008 close, Here is to a brand new year, new beginnings, new life!

Hmmm... Where to start?!.... How about, "Hey, Happy Early Thanksgiving!"

Ok, so yes, its been over 2 months since I have posted. Some might think, "Wow, that's great! She been soo busy she hasn't had time to update!!" This is only a 1/4 of the truth. In all actuality, I have either been, too tired or to upset. So let me see if I can catch you up!

The rest of September: So the rest of September seemed to set the stage for the rest of the year, I think, for FKO. I still, to this day, have no control over my kids. I have literally tried everything possible (Minus spanking.. we don't do that and are not allowed to do that at FKO.. that's not to say I haven't REALLY WANTED TO.) The other job pretty much went per its normal routine (mind you there is no routine so that's normal for this circumstance). Never knowing when I have to be there and when I'm getting off. Ive pretty much had to not make any plans and put the life on hold for her. Shocker! Lets move on to October!

October: My birthday month. I believe that once you hit 25, after that, instead of looking forward to your birthday, you try to forget! :) Tara came down the first weekend in October and we had a little birthday thing while she was down. She gave me an OFFICE birthday! She got me a Dwight Shrute head stress ball, 2 magnetic The Office boards to keep notes on, The Office computer game AND BOARD GAME! I didn't even know there was a board game. So we spent the weekend enjoying The Office! Not to be out-done, my parents got me a new lamp for my room (LOVE IT and *bonus* It doesn't lean or fall apart!) And of course, the 4th season of the Office, which with the exception of letting my dad borrow it and watching my Netflix movies as they come in, has not left my DVD player! My sister bought me P.S. I love you along with a movie watching kit, popcorn, candy bar, M&Ms, a Dr. Pepper, and Kleenex. I had never seen the movie before and she was dead on with the Kleenex, I think there might have only been like 10 minutes of the movie where I was able to gather myself together before I started crying...... again!! It was a lovely birthday! Funny though, I had to work on my birthday, which I wasn't upset about because Its not a national holiday so, yea, welcome to real life. But my nanny boss tried to get me to come back that night and watch her kids so SHE could go out and celebrate HER birthday (we share the same birthday). I told her I couldn't come back and she said, 'Well I didn't know if you had plans or not." LADY IVE WORKED FOR YOU ALL DAY-- I HAVEN'T HAD TIME WITH MY FAMILY FOR MY BIRTHDAY-- YOU BET YOUR ASS I HAVE PLANS!" Then, I found out that she threw away all but 8 pieces of the biscotti that I made for her; that she requested be CHOCOLATE because its her favorite and seemed soo excited when she got it. It was actually just recently that I realized she stuck 8 pieces in a jar and threw the rest out. She still buys the boxed stuff and eats that................................. I literally and speechless. So I'm going to go on and drop this because it will just make me mad.

November: I decided to get myself a birthday gift............................... a TATTOO!! That's right folks, I got my second tattoo on Nov. 1st. Tara went with me. We had plans to get them together but she ended up changing her mind. I'm glad that she stuck to her guns and didn't let the tattoo guy talk her into getting it. I don't blame her one bit for changing her mind. I told her from the beginning when we went and put a deposit down that unless she was 100% sure she wanted it, that she shouldn't get it, because it is permanent. Anyway, the day we went to go check out the place and see what we wanted it was our luck that the guy to help us was an ASS (that's putting it nicely. Thank god he was just the piercer.) Anyway, I think that may have started the whole situation of wrong, and I'm not sure if Tara could ever fully recover; with good reason mind you. Continuing on. I got a butterfly. My original one I wanted to get was a tiger lily and a columbine side by side. But in order to get that it would have to be huge because of the way they have to draw it. I wanted to get something that would symbolize my mom and I. So I saw the butterfly and thought it was perfect. Butterflies symbolize renewal and new beginnings. I feel that is where I am at now, after deciding that after FKO end in May, I'm done with it, as well as the nanny job. Mom has her new beginnings as well. She has been teetering on the edge of a health decision lately and she has made her decision. So we both will be going through some big changes in the future, and she will be by my side, as I will be with her, to make it through the new. Its red (my favorite color), Yellow (the color that reminds me of mom) and Orange (which that tattoo guy added for effect but also..... what certain football team has one of its colors as orange?? Hmmmm...... let me think..... its right on the tip of my tongue...... of that's right THE MIGHTY DENVER BRONCOS!! Who won today by the way... thank god!! YAY!! So anyway, I am beyond pleased with the results! I think I am stopping at 2 tattoos! I almost passed out.... twice.... while getting the 2nd one, which I didn't actually pass out this time so it was already better then the 1st. But i just psyched myself out--- got anxious then.... well... dizzy... then ears ringing and sweating more then I knew I could sweat. Anyway, needless to say I didn't pass out, the tattoo guy went and got me a coke (which is better than candy because it works quicker to raise your blood sugar) and it got finished. Here is the result:

This month also became the stage for a big change for my sister. Her and her family moved to Arizona because Josh got a new job! I called her the night before she left and couldn't stay on the phone but a few minutes because as soon as I heard her voice I started crying and couldn't stop. Shes coming back for Thanksgiving so I'm excited to see her. My friend, Kristen, and her family moved to Monahans in September. Shes been down a few times since she moved, but this past weekend I went to see her. Man, that is one long and boring drive. I did enjoy the quiet ride with just me and my music. But there is nothing out that way lol! I couldn't stay long because I had to work Friday, so I left Saturday morning and came back Sunday morning. Anyway, it was sooooo good to see both her and Aileigh again. Aileigh has gotten so big. I realized how much I took for granted being able to see her and Kristen in just a short 10 minute drive. I'll get to see her again in a few weeks when she comes back for Thanksgiving as well. Cant wait!!

So that has been my November so far. I so want to mention that there was a very important elections that took place this month, as I'm sure EVERYBODY knows. I was more then pleased with the outcome. The following day I actually was in a great mood. I felt good about what had just happened and I felt... as weird as this might sound.... safer! I was proud of our country and where it was headed. Then... i went to work at FKO on Thursday, and the first thing I get hit with are racist jokes by one of the people I work with. Mind you I understand she is of the older generation and probably stuck in her ways, but I was mortified. Not only were they inappropriate, but we were in a CHURCH for goodness sake. There are 4 other ladies I work with, and the one that works beside me is the only one I know of that voted the way I did. She was upset as well when she started hearing the jokes. It made me ashamed. I know I didn't say it, but I was ashamed that things like that still happen. Mind you, I didn't expect the country to change over night. But, seriously..... I just have no words sometimes.

The kitties are doing well. Sophie's new thing is to get on the counter. And nothing seems to stop her otherwise. Alex is as rambunctious as ever. They both love their mommies but usually aren't fond of sharing. I think that may pass as they get older. The family is preparing for a different kind of Christmas this year. We are anxious to see how the cats will do with the tree. And, of course, it will be our first Christmas in 8+ years without Winston. I think that might be the hardest part. Seeing his stocking, NOT seeing him laying on the Christmas skirt under the tree. Christmas is a time of Joy..... but I think some of that might be a little lacking this year. But at the same time, new joys will come with being able to experience the first Christmas with our new kitties. Cameras will be on the ready!!

Well I think that is pretty much all of the big stuff for now. Hopefully I wont wait so long between posts again. For now, I go back to non-responsive kids, un-appreciative bosses, and....... THE OFFICE!! Here's wishing everyone well. My bed beckons and I shouldn't keep it waiting.

Hell Week

Well, as I thought, the past week did end up being my HELL WEEK! Several things-- almost everyday-- attributed to this week of frustration and, in so doing, made me really evaluate where I am in my life right now. Since it is a full weeks worth of drama, I ask ahead of time that you forgive me if I don't completely stay on track. I might leave some things out as well but Ill try to remember it all. SOOOOOOOO...... HERE IT GOES!

Monday:
This day was fairly quiet-- for the most part! I headed over to my nanny job at about 10:15-- I was told to feed Brooklyn and get her to lay down around 11 because Jeff said as soon as he gets home he was going back to bed. It seems that he and Stacey forgot about someone having to take Maddy to school on Monday! So I did as he asked and went home around noonish! I came back at 5 and fed the girls, gave them a bath, and played a little while. Mind you it started this early (Monday) that both of the girls decided they were going to really see how far they could push with me. I labeled the week with them ATTITUDE WEEK. I took them over to their grandma's around 8, then went home with one thought running through my head... 'That wasn't so bad. I can do this!"

Tuesday:
Of course, as a reminder, I do FKO on Tuesday and Thursdays. I should have known the day was going to be bad with the way it started off. I have a little boy named Jerry in my class. Now his grandma said they were working on potty training with him. And it was not going so great. He had an accident not 5 minutes after his dad dropped him off. So I had to halt a conversation with another parent that I was having and take Jerry to the bathroom so I could change him, and at the same time run back to my room and clean up the carpet before the other kids decided to walk through it and sit and put their hands in it. So I got Jerry cleaned up (Note*: FKO started 2 weeks ago and Jerry had an accident on the first day as well so... yea). So as I was cleaning Jerry up I told him that he needs to let me know when he needs to go potty so we don't have accidents any more. Not 10 minutes later....... he has another accident. I was speechless. I literally stood there for 2 minutes just looking at him. So I went and changed him... again.. and this time put him in a pull up. Just to add to the day, the rest of my kids decided they weren't going to listen to a word I said. They would look me in the eye and intentionally do the opposite of what I told them. I was completely blown away. I didn't understand what was going on and why they were deliberately disobeying. I went home that day seriously considering quitting FKO. That was by far the worst day I had had at FKO since I started working there.

Wednesday:
I went to my Nanny job at 10:45 as I usually do. Its pouring rain and as usual Jeff is asleep in his bed at the front of the house. Now this family just finished getting their formal living and dining room hard wood floors done. I always come in the back, as does everybody else. I show up at 10:45 and Brooklyn has not shown up yet. Her grandma was supposed to drop her off. So I waited. At about 10:55 I hear the doorbell. My first thought is CRAP WHO'S RINGING THE DOORBELL, JEFF IS SLEEPING. So I run to the door (as quietly as I can) and open it up and there stands Brooklyn and her grandma. I'm soo confused-- she knows Jeff is sleeping and on top of that, its pouring raining and now Brooklyn has to walk on the newly done floors to get to the den. I have the grandma telling me Oh April, your going to have to dry that up, quick. So I'm standing there thinking, "Well what do you want me to do, take this stuff out of your hands and make sure Brooklyn doesn't fall and break her neck, or go and wipe up the water on the floor?!?! So I took Brooklyn back to the den and got her situated, then got a towel and got on my hands and knees and wiped up the water. I went to go get Brooklyn some lunch and she didn't want anything that was available and gave me her usual twisted face and stomped out. I fed her lunch, whether she liked it or not, and then we went to go lay down. And of course she started crying, "I don't want to go to sleep in my crib." My first thought was, "Well I wouldn't either if I was almost 4 and still in a crib." But unfortunately if I lay her on the couch she wont go to sleep, and as cranky as she had been SHE NEEDED SLEEP! I left a little after 2 and tried to take a quick nap, which really wasn't happening. I went back that night and the girls had attitude again. I found out Maddy lied about the drink situation in her lunch so I told her I was going to have to tell her mom and she said I KNOW. The girls were eating dinner (Hot dog, goldfish and half an apple) and everything was fine, except Brooklyn was eating as slower then a snail's pace. Ive been trying to get her to learn to eat in like a 45 minute window because at FKO they have about that long to eat and play before its time to pick up and head to nap time, and she had been doing real well for a couple of weeks. So I started their bath, and Maddy was ready, but Brooklyn sat at the table, playing with her apples. She had already been eating for an hour at this point. Now on a side note, whenever I have to give the girls a bath I have a special thing I do with them. I wrap up each of them in their robes then throw them on the bed. After they lay there for a few minutes I shake them and that's how they drive off, and they love it. Its now become a must every time I am there for bath time. So back to the story. I kept on telling Brooklyn that she needed to eat her apples and not play with them. She would look at me then continue playing. So I told her that if I had to ask her to eat her apples again then I wouldn't throw her on the bed. And needless to say I had to ask again. So I told her no bed. She didn't believe me until the girls were getting out of the bath and Maddy got to be thrown, but not her. She pitched a bloody fit. So I had to explain to her that I wasn't doing it to be mean, but she needed to realize that I shouldn't have to ask her 10 times to do something and that there are consequences to repeatedly ignoring me. Of course she kept crying but she said she understood. I dropped the girls off at grandmas and went home. *sigh*

Thursday:
FKO again. I had had time to calm down and relax from Tuesday. Or at least as relaxed as I could be. I went in there thinking, "Today is a new day. New beginning. It will be great." Jerry showed up and I took him straight to the bathroom so we wouldn't have an accident. His grandmother told me that there were 3 changes of clothes in his bag and 1 pull up, because she didn't want him getting the idea that he could run around in pull ups all the time. Correct me if I'm wrong but aren't pull ups a potty training AID? If you know that he is prone to accidents wouldn't it make since to put him in a pull up and work from there. Now if I had only 3 kids at FKO, then I could devote more time to taking Jerry to the potty every 10 minutes. But i have 6-7 each day. I cant keep running to the bathroom to change him or make sure he actually goes, on top of making sure my other kids are tearing down the building. Long story short.... Jerry had 3 accidents this day. 2 of them within 5 minutes. The director of FKO, Kathy, ended up taking care of the last 2. She could tell that there was no way I could keep running back and forth with him. I'm really grateful she was able to help. That night Maddy had lost her privilege of my playing "Deer" with her (Deer is pretty much her running around and me trying to catch her). Her grandmother had told me, when I went to pick up Brooklyn for FKO, that Maddy was smart mouthing her all morning. So when I asked Maddy what had gone on that morning she tried to tell me it was all her grandmothers fault, which I knew was a lie. So she lost the Deer privilege and we watched a movie instead. Stacey, the mom, ended up coming back that night because her flight into Houston on Friday had been cancelled because of the hurricane so she found a flight into Midland that night. So with this being the case, I still took the girls over to their grandmother's only I took them a little later then usual. I was excited that I wouldn't have to go back Friday night!!

Friday:
I showed up at 10:45 as usual.... only no one was home except Jeff, who was asleep. I waited, and waited, and waited. Around 5-10 minutes after 11 Stacey walks in with Brooklyn. Shes hurried because she is supposed to open her store so she gets her stuff and goes. I do my usual with Brooklyn, "Brooklyn want to play something?" "No, I want to watch Dora." 'Well we can play something while we watch Dora." "SHSHHSHSHHSHHSHSHSHHHSH I cant hear." "Brooklyn, #1 you do not talk to me that way, #2 What have I told you about saying please and thank you?" Lunch was made and eaten, she was laid down for a nap, then I sat there waiting anxiously for Jeff to get up so I could go home. I was glad that part of the horror week was over.
Friday night I went over to my friend Kristen's, and she gave me a nice little pep talk about some thoughts I had about where my life was going. It was a good push and it made me realize how much I was going to miss her.

Saturday:
This day...... my fish.... committed suicide. You read right, he committed suicide. I had had Daniel for quite a bit, a year, if not almost a year. About 4-5 months after I got him he started to swell up. It looked like he had swallowed a rock or something. I kept thinking he was going to keel over any day. But he was such a trooper and perservered on. I thought he'd die of natural causes at least. So Saturday, I had just cleaned his bowl (I will say I am in major fault because I always seem to wait too long to change his bowl) and I realized I ran out of water conditioner and that I would have to go to Petsmart Monday. So I'm sitting at my computer around 2 something and I hear this noise like something fell, like a bottle cap or something. Now Sophie was in my room and I should have known because she was looking up, while I was looking down. I didn't see anything and went on my way. I fell asleep after 5 and woke up at 6 and decided to feed Daniel. So I look for him.. don't see him. I stand up on my little stool and look directly in the bowl.... nothing. My first thought is, "I did put him back right-- he didn't get washed down the sink? Yes I did. WHERE THE HELL IS HE?" My second thought was, "Oh crap if he jumped out I hope Sophie or Alex didn't eat him. They have been in and out of my room all day." So I start searching the floor........ and I found him. He was under my little rolling cart by my bed-- covered in fuzz and hair-- stiff as a rock. I couldn't believe my fish would rather jump from 3 feet in the air to its death then live with me. I felt like a fabulous pet owner that day. That night I ended up going bar hopping with Kristen and some other friends from work. It was........ different. All I can say is I never have and never will be a "bar" girl.

So that's how the week ended. I'm soooo glad its over. I have much more to look forward to now. All the good TV starts back up in the next few weeks. And hopefully the Denver game today is a sign that this week will be far better then the last. Mind you I only got the last 9 minutes of the game but OMG i cant remember a time where I was soo nervous the last 2 minutes that I just couldn't sit down. Out of any of the games that San Diego one was the one I really hoped we would win and wanted to win.... AND WE DID!! By a miracle, mind you, but a win none the less. Mom and I had another tiny tiny sob fest at the kitchen table, today, thinking about Christmas and how Winston wouldn't be with us this year and how hard its going to be not seeing him under the tree. But then thoughts went to remembering that we needed to find the kitties stockings for Christmas and get them their own ornaments since Winston had his and its only right that they have theirs.

I still have a lot on my mind. This blog is devoted to the past week. My other thoughts will have to wait for a later date. But for now, I'm going to go watch some Cold Case and relax on my bed with Sophie by my side. I sure missed not being able to spend our usual quality nap time together, and apparently so did she. Till next time, here's to a much better week, and a lot less urine.

Im alive..... REALLY!

So yes it has been a while-- and yes I did fall off the face of the earth. But I'm alive.... REALLY! Its not so much that there is alot going on but just that I have been busy with the same thing almost everyday so I haven't wanted to sit down and actually write! So I'll update you on April's life.

*The Jobs: So the nanny job has been a little stressful lately. I don't know if it is because school is starting soon or just the monotony of summer but my patience level has dwindled greatly. I have, however, started to stand up a little more for myself and not necessarily let things go so easily. Of course I don't have kids so I really think sometimes that what I think is ridiculous when it comes to some of the ways these kids are being raised that I really don't know what I'm talking about. So I have had to bite my tongue on alot of things and just do as I am told. But most of the time I am having to mend some fences and pick up broken pieces, which is heart breaking.
My boss goes to a "Market" for her store in Vegas each year. And it just so happens that it is Monday through Friday the week after FKO starts. Last year it started on a Thursday, so I wasn't over there as much as I thought I would be. But this year, I think, is going to be a little different. I think this year I might actually have to be the definition of an actual nanny. I mean possibly living there for a week. It should be....... interesting. Of course nothing has been set in stone, or even talked about for that matter, but I'm preparing myself for a week of high stress, low patience, and little sleep. So ...... we'll see.

As for FKO, I'm actually anxious for it to start. Next week are our teacher work days and I cant wait to decorate my room. I remember when my sister was teaching and was telling me about setting up her room and she always sounded so excited but I could never really grasp how she felt. But I do now! I know I started last year with my first actually class, no floating or previous teachers teaching with me ion my class, so technically last year was my first year to decorate. But I was "newbie" and didn't have a whole lot to work with so I used what they had and made it work. But this year I sort of went all out. I went to Abilene Educational Supply (Big mistake, I can spend hundreds of dollars on there..... its just so great) and found a whole bunch of frog/pond related things. Since my class is the dragonflies, frogs were the closet I could come. So I bought a whole bunch of new things and got them laminated (Quick shout out and thanks to Brenda, my boss, who was kind enough to go with me to Region 14 to get everything laminated... I had no clue what I was doing and she was such a huge help), and I really just cant wait!!

*Friends: So My best friend Kristen is struggling with what to do living wise. Her husband works a job down at Fort Stockton so they don't get to see each other often. I know she misses him terribly and it has to be putting a slight strain on the family. That, accompanied with other the other stresses of her daily life, have led her to consider moving down with him. And while I will miss her greatly and be bored out of my mind, all I want is for her to be happy and less stressed. So I told her I am behind her 100% and that all it means is more road trips for me lol!!

Also, my friend Tara is coming back down this weekend! After our her previous trips down here we both agreed that seeing each other once every 3 or 4 months just wasn't going to cut it. She brings out my crazy side and I missed that. So I am really looking forward to seeing her again. I had every intention of going down there but finances were not allowing me. But she was soo great and said she would come down here. She's been traveling alot so I told her I would understand if she didn't want to be she said... NO, I'M COMING!! lol So I'm looking forward to a great weekend with a great friend!

Family: My parents went to their first doctors appointment with their new doctor (off base... thank god) and they really liked him. Mom had said that all she wanted was a doctor who would actually listen to her and hear her...... and apparently she got that, which I was thrilled about. My dad said that he has more tests run that day then he did in his entire Air Force career. So I feel good knowing that they are in good hands.
I went down to see my sister in July. It was a nice trip. I got to see Christopher, and hold him. He felt so tiny, smaller then Zach even. But Diana told me that Zach was actually smaller. But I think he looks sooo much like her and he is beautiful, just like she is. It was a nice visit, and I was glad to see her, but since this is my blog, and I vent here, I will say that it was a true challenge going down there with just my dad. My dad and I have never really been super close. Not that we haven't tried, I just don't think we have a whole lot in common, you know?! Anyway, we spoke maybe 10 words on the way up there and 10 words on the way back. Its weird because when he used to take me back at school in Stephenville we would talk about all sorts of things. But it just seems to be gone. At times I feel like he's not satisfied with what I am doing with my life. And I know its just a parent wanting the best for his daughter, but I don't think he realizes that some of the things he says, and the way he says it...... hurts. So I take it with a grain of salt, and then mull over it, usually cry a little, then suck it up. So by writing this I've come to realize that Ive built up a tough skin and a very thick wall between me and my dad. Who knows if it will get better or not. He has mood swings (as all men do.... you know what I'm saying :) ) So we have our good times and bad times. The good times are soo good, but the bad times are awful. You can touch the tension with a knife. I don't know........

Miscellaneous: I AM SOOOOO PISSED! They have moved the Premier of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince to July of NEXT YEAR! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? The reasons they gave were that they thing they would profit more from a Summer release, and that the writer's strike hit them hard and they just want to make sure that the script and stuff was the best it could be and blah blah blah!! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH! SO MAD!
Ive been keeping up with the Olympics for the most part. YAY for Michael Phelps! What an athlete, that's all I can say! Doesn't hurt that hes a looker either lol!! Women's gymnastics has been good as well. I love that Nastia Lueken Won the gold after Shawn seemed to be the golden girl! Good for her! I have also found myself getting caught up with Women's Volleyball, the pairs that is! Man they are good! But I'm kind of looking forward to their end. Having to tape 5-6 hours every night is getting a little frustrating lol!

As for the kittens, well they are growing! Sophie is all fluffy, and clings to me as often as she can. When I have to go out she left me know of her disapproval, and then shuns me when I come home. She is definitely, and I think always will be, momma's girl!! YAY! We decided to introduce treats this week. Alex took to them right away. Sophie, however, wanted absolutely nothing to do with them. She would sniff them, then try to bury them, then walk away. I cant believe I'm going to have a cat who doesn't like treats. But I decided that each payday we will get 2 more different treats and try some until we find some she likes. We will end up with TONS of treats, mind you, but that doesn't matter. I'm wondering if maybe she prefers the hard treats over the soft. I don't know but I will get down to the bottom of it lol!

All I have to say is...... 38 DAYS TILL THE OFFICE!!

Mom is working frivolously to finish my quilt. There were a few miscalculations of length of material and I know she is concerned/upset with herself about it but I told her i didn't care, I just wanted my quilt and Ill love it no matter what! So by Wednesday I will have a new quilt on my bed, and I'm excited!

As I'm sure most of you know we are in full football swing now. Denver lost its first game to Houston and won its second game against Dallas! I was all about catching every game but I went out with Kristen the day of the Dallas game, but they had it on a screen in Chili's so I was able to catch bits and pieces. Of course the one time I don't watch we win. It figures. I wont catch this weeks either because Tara is coming in and we are going out. But really its just pre-season and it doesn't result in anything but seeing how the team stacks up for the season. All I can do is remain hopeful but expect the worst. One of our best players, John Lynch, went to New England (YUCK) so that was disappointing. And let me just say I can not believe that the Jets let go of their first string quarter back just to take on Brett Favre. I'm sorry I think that is ridiculous. Whatever, its not like the Broncos have made the best decisions either so.... yeah.

Alright I think its time to wrap it up! I have a feeling it may be a while before I update again so I hope all are well and stay well. I will continue to survive until some normalcy arrives. Till then... farewell!

Updates and Misc.

So just to start off, this blog is not about anything specific so it might become random and maybe hard to follow!

OK, so my sister finally had her baby on Friday! Its nice to know Christopher has finally joined us and I know my sister is much excited that he is too. I talked to her that night and she sounded great, probably the best I've ever heard someone after they've had a baby! So that made me happy as well. I'm sure that most of you who read my blog read my sisters as well so I wont talk about the whole induction date mix up! But i will say that for the crisis at hand, she seemed to take it about as well as any almost 1 week past due pregnant woman could! So kudos to her for being able to keep her cool! Anyway, I'm going to visit her the first weekend in August. I am looking forward to seeing her and the boys.

Another subject! So as I'm sure you all know Winston's passing has been hard (I'm sure you are all tired of hearing about it and thinking "Move on for goodness sake, you have 2 new kittens). Anyway, I do still have moments where I cant help but cry, but for the most part I try to pull myself together. Friday afternoon I was cleaning up my room and found a bottle of asthma pills for Winston, and I lost it. I didn't know what to do with them. The logical part of me said, "Flush them" but the emotional side said, "Its a keepsake so you;ll never forget them... keep them!" So I took them to my mom, in tears, and gave them to her so she could decide what to do. Ive a picture of Winston as my cell phone background and desktop background since I can remember. And this weekend I changed them both to pictures of Sophie. As backwards as it sounds, it was actually becoming more difficult to see Winston every day then it was easier. Brooklyn, one of the little girls I watch, everyday will say, "Is that your dead kitty?" as my phone opens. It got to the point where i couldn't handle it anymore. Maddy tells her, "Brooklyn don't talk about it, it makes her sad." But Brooklyn hasn't grasped that concept yet.

Different subject. So I have 2 days of FKO left before a month break before the regular school year. I must say I am really looking forward to the break. Of course summertime is going to be hectic at any mother's day out program, but as I'm sure most of you can tell by now..... I LIKE STRUCTURE!! So while the first few weeks were an incredible challenge for me (that's an understatement) I've actually settled in quite well and have a very steady flow of things. So from here it is pretty much just enjoying my last 2 weeks with the kids (since some of them wont be coming back in the fall) and making sure they have a good time while they are there.

New Subject! So I'm going to try and generalize the following situation! Say, you have a person who is in the position to tell you what to do. And of course you listen and accommodate because you need the monetary repercussions. And at the beginning of this professional relationship the person seemed to be very understanding of your life, the need for structure and times and such, but as the year past that understanding was replaced by, "You accepted this "relationship" you have to do what I say! Then it progressed to me being "on call" at pretty much all times. Situations arise and things are said that you clearly think are inappropriate and not OK, but you have to take into consideration the amount of stress this other person is under and the fact that they may not understand that things they say is rude or inappropriate. Where do you draw the line. How much can you say in your defense without crossing the "professional" line. The relationship of course has its ups and downs but for the most part you are happy with where it is at. Your not upset to the point of breaking off this relationship. You just want to know how much you can say before you really shouldn't say anymore. *sigh* That's about as vague as I can get. That's just some things that have been going through my mind!

MOVING ON!! So ABC and NBC have posted the starting dates for a majority of their Fall line up and I started to get excited about these shows that I had kind of forgotten about, but missed.
Brothers & Sisters, Samantha Who? Pushing Daisies, Eli Stone, Heroes. But there is one, above all others, that I simply cannot wait for............................THE OFFICE! That's right folks, mark your calendars because on Thurs. September 25th from 8-9 (central) The Office will return with its hour season premiere! I'm really kind of freaking out. It cant come soon enough. On another TV note-- Lance Bass, bass singer for NSYNC , has signed on to be part of Dancing with the Stars. So its no guess who will automatically be one of my favs. for the win! Oh the memories! As for Big Brother, I honestly haven't favored some over others. I think its too soon to tell who I'm going to like and who I wont. I can tell you right now I'm not a fan of Jerry or Renny.... surprise surprise lol!

Alright time to wrap up! Things to do-- pets to feed and annoy!! Hope everyone has a good week! OOHHHHh Diana gets to go home today so welcome home sis! LOVE YOU! LOVE YOU ALL!! I'm out!

Wine, Chicken Foot, Agent 86, The Phone Number, & Midori Sours

So this past weekend I had a dear friend come to visit me! Tara is pretty much the only person I still talk to from Tarleton so its nice to see her again. See last time I went to see her I ended up getting sick so the weekend could have gone better! She arrived Friday afternoon (she would have arrived a little earlier but Google Maps failed her). She absolutely adored the kitties and they adored her!

So that night Tara, myself, and my mom opened up some wine and we introduced her to Chicken Foot! It took her only 2 rounds to finally get the hang of it and she was hooked! We played till at least 11-12 I think! And then Tara indulged me with my first round of Harry Potter Scene It!, which she actually won (and my ego was shot lol).

The next day we played some more chicken foot and Harry Potter Scene It! (I finally won lol) and then it was nap time. Kristen called me and asked if we wanted to come over later that night to hang out and play pool and stuff! So when Tara got up I asked her. I think I caught her off guard because she was a little leery that she wouldn't have anything to talk about with Kristen and Allen and she didn't know how to act. So i told her what K told me ACT LIKE YOURSELF! She agreed to hang out (hesitantly) and then we headed off to go see Get Smart!! We showed up at the the theater and went to go give out tickets when I look up and see a giant cut out of DWIGHT from The Office behind the ticket taker. Only Dwight was not dressed as Dwight, he was almost naked with nothing but a banana hammock on, long wavy brown hair, and a sword in each hand. Spontaneously, without thinking I shouted OMG THAT'S DWIGHT! I think the ticket taker thought I was crazy. Anyway, Get Smart was sooooooo funny! It had to have been the funniest movie Ive seen in a while. Steve Carell (Agent 86) is quickly becoming my favorite comedian!! MUST SEE! MUST GO SEE! EVERYONE GO SEE!!
After the movie we headed to Red Robin which neither of us had been to. It wasn't too crowded and a pleasant environment, and we sat down and ordered and caught up on whats been going on with each other. Our waiter was pretty handsome and very kind (of course what waiter isn't that wants a big tip lol) They did have some mighty fine drinks there and I even asked the waiter to just make me a drink the way he thought it needed to be made. He brought me an Ultimate Margarita, gave me a gentle punch on the shoulder and said, "This will knock you on your ass!!"...................................AND IT DID!! lol So as we were about to leave Tara got some spirit in her and decided to leave her number for the waiter. She asked me if I wanted her to leave my number and i was like NO NO NO! Should have just been spontaneous and said yes but oh well right! Anyway, she did leave her number and then we high tailed it out of the restaurant lol! I think she was nervous the waiter would see the ticket while we were still there or something lol!
After a quick bathroom break at the house we headed over to Kristen's. By this time Tara is really excited to head over to K's! I had told her when I came down to visit that my new favorite drink was a Midori Sour. Kristen was the one who introduced me to it! SOOOOOO good! Anyway, Allen became bartender and Tara got to try her first Midori Sour! I think she liked it! Anyway, we played pool and listened to music and danced (Well me and Kristen did!!) and talked. It really was soo much fun!!! We left Kristen's around 3 am and headed to Whataburger for a taquito on my part and chicken strips for Tara! It didn't take long for us to fall asleep lets just say that!!

The next morning we played another round of chicken foot then Tara headed home! It was such a great weekend. I really cant remember the last time I had such a great exciting and relaxing weekend where I just completely enjoyed myself.

Sadly, things went back to normal yesterday as the week began and it was back to work. Seems its always worse and harder to get back to your daily routine when you have a holiday! So I always have to remind myself that Holidays might be fun, but the aftermath sucks!!

On a completely different note, my sister is due to have Christopher any day now. Or I hope any day now for her sake! I'm sending contraction/birthing thoughts to you Diana!! Here's hoping!! Anyway, everyone have a good week and I hope your 4th of July weekend was as enjoyable as mine!